| | So in these beginning idle days of what promises to be a completely idle summer, it has come to my attention that I have a lot that I want to do, but very little motivation to actually do it. A To Do list is only so threatening. I want to write. I want to write so much my fingers bleed. And I want to read. I want to read until my eyeballs have paper cuts. But it's summer, so of course I want to get outside and actually do something, see my friends that I haven't seen in forever, just laze around on the grass, discover what my dog rolled in to make her smell so repulsive, you know, what every teenager wants to do during the summer. I want to play with chalk, just cover the entire driveway in the stuff and leave the neighbors to wonder who the five year old is who actually drew all of it. I want to stare at the stars for so long I get lost in the darkness. I want to swing on the tire swing in my backyard in the rain and get sopping wet dancing through the drops. I want to do something completely romantic and absolutely nonsensical, all at the same time. I would love to figure out why my computer has decided that it's not going to have any sound on Internet things, but will let me listen to my itunes. I want to figure out why my brother has friends over when I look like a harpy, if that's purposeful or completely accidental. I want to wake up before nine o'clock. I want to stay up all night just to watch the sun rise and find out if caffeine actually affects me or not. I want to do something completely spontaneous and not realize it was spontaneous until afterwards when I reflect on how totally random it was. I kinda want to walk around my neighborhood and take black and white pictures of pretty much anything just so I can pretend I'm a photographer for a day. I want to quote a movie and have someone recognize where it came from. I want to finish something. I want to drive with all the windows down and scream my favorite song. I kinda just want to be random. I want to do everything.
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I want to leave a secret note somewhere someone'll find it. I want to meet someone who can convince me that being adventurous can be safe. I want to avoid the computer for an entire week just to prove to myself that I can. I want to sit in the sun and just listen to the world around me. I want to take random pictures of cemetery monuments, creepy though that may be. I want to light candles and have a seance, pretend or not.
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I want to do Shakespeare. Be in a play, direct one, write an adaptation, at least one, please. Maybe all three, Kenneth Branagh's done it, kinda. I want to write an adaptation of The Canterbury Tales. I want to write a murder mystery. I want to write a play that the audience is actually a part of. I want to use the characters that I have no plot for. I want to have a conversation entirely made up of movie quotes or song titles. I want to read some classics. I want to convince myself that I deserve to be involved in theatre at school, even though I'm convinced that everyone in that department is a vampire and opposed to a werewolf joining them. I want to go geocaching or waymarking or letterboxing. I want to find a way to trick myself into thinking that there is more time in a single day.
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